i hate being sick!

i'm having severe allergic reactions to all kinds of things. prob still that damn spider bite. now something else. i'm afraid to go to the doctor because i'm afraid he wants to put me in the hospital, and quite frankly, i don't want to go. either way, i'm miserable. i spent my holiday watching Law and Order marathons, wishing i was dead, and listening to people illegally popping fireworks at my apartment complex. i'm afraid to go outside because i might react to something else. i'm not a recluse, though. i'm at work right now. needless to say, that's why i'm not posting. i'm barely even replying to emails and text messages, and those are my favorite things to do which should show you how crummy i feel. i think i'm days away from having to live in a plastic bubble...