renewal

hmmmm. so i have been doing a lot of thinking this year, and i am on the cusp of something life changing. but i'm still not a hundred percent sure on whether or not to go ahead with it for several reasons.

1. i am my father's daughter. that means i'm super cautious, not spontaneous, and very wary. i wouldn't have it any other way. the paternal unit is amazing.

2. the economy is a problem. these life changing steps could mean a financial crunch for me, and with the economy limping around its own death bed, i don't know that right now is the best time to be making such changes. but, if not now, then when?

3. what about other avenues? i guess i have several life changing options in my giant brain, and i can't decide which one is the best. i think i have finally settled on one, and then i start re-thinking another one. i'm half tempted to just fashion some time of primitive dart board apparatus and let chance pick and choose my future.

4. what's wrong with the life i'm leading? well, where do i freakin' start? just kidding. i have a great life full of friends and family, but that doesn't mean it can't be better. but i sure don't want to look back and regret rocking the boat.

so that leaves me nowhere really. but i should, hopefully, be making some kind of decision by the time my next birthday rolls around, and i will post the anti-climactic results then. if you feel that you are wise for whatever reasons, then feel free to shoot me an email or a text or leave me a comment with your thoughts. i can't promise to take you jokers seriously, but i could surprise you.